Those are just the two most awesome presents I got. The Aperture Laboratories T-shirt is from my brother. My jaw dropped when I saw it, I love it. The book is from my mom. It seems really-really interesting. I'm going to read it, but probably not all at once. I have other stuff to do, too.
I'd love to live here for a couple of weeks, not leaving the room, only eating take-out. I'd love to get away for some time.
All images were taken from this awesome blog. Feel free to check it out. The blogger chick is also pretty awesome, so feel free to check her out, too.
There's also this cool lifestyle blog by my friend Stella. You'll find some good music there, find out what cool people do nowadays and probably see some cool pictures, and get outfit ideas I guess.
I'm was just sitting here in Frens Cafe and thought I'd write something.
I recently celebrated my birthday and the party was pretty fun. It wasn't exactly as I'd have liked it to be since I didn't have all of my good friends there, but it was good enough I suppose. I got an awesome Star Wars T-shirt and other cool stuff, including money. But the present I liked the most was a bottle of Jack Daniels whiskey. I'm not an alcoholic or anything, but I enjoy good whiskey. It's one of the few types of alcoholic beverage I'm even willing to drink. I enjoy the taste, but almost never the feeling of drunkenness, which is why I seldom drink at all, and never to get drunk.
Back to the party now. It was a 20's themed party. The men looked exactly like I expected them to, but the women's outfits seemed a bit exaggerated. There were about 25 people there, I suppose. I'm never good at guessing the number of people at a given event. I'm always off by at least 10 people so there was probably +/- 25 people.
Well, it's fall once again and the days are pretty short and dark now. Winter and Christmas come soon and I'm actually looking forward to them. It's a time to be spent with good friends and family, and that's exactly what I'm planning on doing. I have some thoughts on what I want to do to make Christmas great for the people around me. I'm going to bake gingerbread cookies and be really friendly to everyone so that they can enjoy these dark times. I want to make that grey unwelcoming place called Koidula a bit better for my classmates even though I'm not really feeling a good vibe from them and I'd rather spend time with my Sütevaka classmates. FYI I'm going to see them today so that will brighten my day. I quite miss them actually, although I've known most of them only for a couple of months. And of course not only classmates - I have a lot of good friends there and I wish I could see them all more.
The only thing keeping me in Koidula is the education. I greatly enjoy physics and maths so I'm going to keep going there to educate myself in those subjects. Otherwise I would leave right away. Hell, I wouldn't have even gone there in the first place. People there are so judgmental and uptight, and so fixed in their own opinions and points of view. Of course I'm not talking about absolutely everyone, but in overall, that's the emotion and impression that school and most of its people still give me.
I've gone on long enough for one post. Sorry for the lack of images and music, but I'm using a horribly slow public network and am unable to upload any photos.
Just a quick update on what's going on.
First of all I'm changing schools. Going from Sütevaka Humanitaargümnaasium to Koidula Gümnaasium. It's sad that I won't be able to see all of my good friends in Süte every day. Most of my best friends are there (but not the very best) - people who are very dear to me. On the other hand, in Koidula I'll get to study the things I want in a manner I want. There's physics and math which I can't do without. In addition to that there are better teachers (in my opinion). Today, my class sent me off with an extremely warm goodbye and that made my leaving that much more bearable.
Secondly, I've seriously taken up programming now. My bro's teaching me, or giving me directions at least. It's fascinating and I can't wait to write something myself. But first I need to learn a bit of theory.
Then there's the Ewert and the Two Dragons concert which was fucking awesome (pardon my French). Went to see it with a good friend and overall awesome person.
Anyway, keep doing what you're doing.
Procrastination is one of the biggest problems I have. I delay things until the last minute all the time. I'm not actually complaining, because I haven't had any problems with it so far. Thus I have no reason to stop procrastinating, because I haven't learned any lessons about it being bad. Now that I think about it, it isn't actually a problem, maybe a potential problem, sure, but not a real problem at the moment. So I'm going to leave it at that.
On a side note, I decided that a post a month is suitable with my laziness level and I guess I'll be able to keep that schedule. So expect that in the future.
There's a lot of stuff going on. Seems I'm a real theater visitor now. I'll be going to the theater quite a lot in the near future. Also, I'm going to the Ewert and the Two Dragons concert with on of the coolestest (intentional) people I know. On the other hand there's some real interesting stuff going that I'm not going into detail about here. But be assured, it's intriguing and pretty deep on occasion (at least for me).
Life's a bitch. Just thought that needed saying. But I suppose everyone knows that already anyway. Just a reminder.
Uhmmmm... there's nothing reasonable coming from me anymore.
So whaddaya say we get to the unreasonable stuff.
Epic pictures. Love 'em.
Anyways. The thing is that I'm in fucking love, alright. And if anyone who isn't involved or I haven't involved myself asks me about it, I'm just going to: A) change the subject, B) keep perfectly still and silent or C) walk away. Immature you say? Well, here's a link to how many fucks I give: right here, click, I dare ya.
I think this is a good time to thank my best friend Stella for much needed advice, the occasional up of the cheering and some justified pushing. Thanks Stella :)
But what can I say about the girl? Well, she's everything I have ever looked for. Even considering the fact that I haven't been looking for any of the things that she is. So I guess she's everything I should have been looking for. Makes sense. I could write a couple-thousand word novel here about her, but that is definitely a thing that I'm not going to do.
Oh and one more thing - I think that the next couple of posts will not be very cheerful. Figure it out yourself why.
OK, I'm back. Some people urged me to keep writing so that's what I'm going to do.
I seriously overestimate people. I believe that everyone who I meet is supposed to be a mature rational human being. I have been disappointed an immense amount of times by finding out that they're actually not. I believe it's because that's the kind of people I want to meet. I suppose it's normal to not always be having calm conversations and whatnot, and to sometimes want to do things that are considered childish. I personally refrain from doing stuff like that.
Saw it in my friend's blog. Isn't it awesome?!
My life's been pretty ordinary lately. My (still) new school is awesome. Some really great people there. The whole school is a big source of inspiration and boost to creativity. I have a couple of plans already beginning to take shape. Like going abroad as an exchange student for example. Also I have made some great new friends of people I didn't know were actually nice people. All in all, life is good in despite of some little setbacks that I'll probably get over.
I am going to tennis training again (I didn't have time in the summer for I had work) and I'm really enjoying it. Old friends and good people. Plus I love playing tennis. Also I'm in my school's choir which is kind of great. I am beginning to control my voice better and better, and I like singing.
I also have a lot more plans for this school-year that I want to accomplish. Like properly learning some basic programming language, getting better at playing the guitar and getting good grades at school. So far I've been on the right track for the last two, but I really need someone to help me get started with programming. I know my brother will help if I ask, so that's what I'll do.
Right now I'm sitting in Wine Piccadilly and will soon head to choir practice.
Also, would someone please teach me to jive! I just want to know how to dance jive so bad. But I don't really have time or the resources for a dancing school or teacher. And as I understand it, I just can't go somewhere and learn to jive. I have to learn a whole bunch of different dances, which wouldn't actually be bad, but I'm not that interested in dancing.
Anyway, enjoy your lives, 'cause I sure am.
Have a good one.
O.
The last week or so has been a terrific time. First was school camp which was simply awesome. The people were great and we had a blast doing all the shit we had to do. Plus, it was a great way to get to know my new classmates (most of whom are great, but I'll get to that in a moment). At camp each new high school student had their own "god" who basically were in total command. They gave us assignments like eating and drinking some seriously disgusting stuff and dancing or just laying down on their command. Basically what ever they wished. But on the contrary to what some might think, it was actually fun.
Now on to the class. My classmates are a bunch of talented and otherwise cool people. There are all kinds of musicians and athletes and dancers and whatnot. So far we've all gotten along pretty well. We have an ongoing plan to make our classroom a well-decorated place with couches and other furniture, posters and a speaker system. It's cool that the school lets us do stuff like that.
School itself has been... well... like school. Only that now we get to use our laptops. It's great fun actually and helps make school tolerable, if not more.
Right now I feel weird. I feel like if I deemed it necessary, I would beat someone up. I am not a violent person, but right now I feel like that if someone maybe insulted one of my friends or stole something from me or betrayed me, I would beat them up just to teach them a lesson. It is the most random and at the same time awful feeling, 'cause it actually solves nothing - the beating up, I mean. Nevertheless, I would kick someone's ass just for the sake of it.
The past couple of days have actually been pretty fun. The most noteworthy things is probably the fact that I went to a karaoke bar with one of my best friends and we just trolled some old Finnish people who kept singing these god-awful Finnish love songs. So yeah, we cracked up. Then we sang some Guns 'n' Roses and left the place.
Otherwise, my brother is home after a long period of ... not being at home, I guess. The talking doesn't seem to want to end now that he's here.
Today's my last day at work. And later I'm going to a concert by Singer Vinger. Hopefully it'll be good.
Think before you speak. Words have immense power. Keep that in mind.
I played a shitload of video games today and then went out with my friends and had a great time.
I mostly played Starcraft II, if you're interested, which I assume you're not. Then I went to town and taught my grandma about her computer. How to do some simple shit that she forgets. I'm like: "I told you this like two days ago - you need to press here to download this picture on your computer". She doesn't understand how to download a picture for god sake. Why did she get a computer anyway? It's not like it has helped her in any major way.
But anyway, my friends,we just walked around and trolled for some time and then went to Bumerang. I ate some cake that wasn't anything spectacular, but okay - whatever.
I don't have anything meaningful to write about. Like, who the fuck cares what I ate today or what time I woke up. I mean, even I don't care what I ate and when I woke up so why should you.
I was planning on going to training today, but I decided not to because there was a storm outside. Literally, a storm. Fascinating.
My attitude sucks, I know. It's awful (well, not really), but I don't give a fuck. I sometimes wonder what is the point of this blog. I wish I had some insightful answer to that question, but all I have is: "Because I say so".
I'm usually not a douchebag, just today. I'd apologize, but I honestly don't care.
I lately get irritated by totally pointless things. I'm usually pretty immune to trolling and I usually go along with it, but today I got annoyed by the most stupid things. Like, on FB there was this "friend" who posted a picture with text on it and it said something like this: "I'm the kind of girl who cares. I might not like you and not talk to you but I still care. I always will." And the thought that ran through my head was: "Who the fuck cares? Are you really that insecure that you feel the need to post something like that? I mean, your friends (the people who should care about that shit) should probably already know that and the rest of the people just don't care." It pissed me off for some reason. And then I saw this post on 9GAG that was of a question posted on YahooAnswers. Some asshole had written that Harry Potter was a ripoff of Twilight. And then he/she (the asshole) had written some incredibly inaccurate facts about Harry Potter. I just wanted to punch that dude. I was like: "What is the matter with you? How can you be that stupid. It's not humane. I hope you die." That's how angry I got.
Well, a quick update on what's been going on. First of all, during the last two days I've had the utmost pleasure of spending a little time with my friends again. I really can't think of people who I want to be with more than my friends. I felt kind of bad for working so much that I didn't get to hang out with them, but I guess it's cool. We went on a boat trip the other day and, aside from me getting a bit seasick as usual, it was really fun. In addition to that, they came to see me at work, too, which was also nice.
After the boat trip we had a little get-together with the people from work and had a blast. I surprised my parents by notifying them that I wasn't going to be sleeping at home that night. It isn't very often that something like that happens so they were a bit surprised.
Today, I spent a nice morning all by myself. I just loved going to a cafe, getting some breakfast and watching people walk by, going to work or running their errands or whatever.
Other than those little highlights I haven't been doing much. Just work and home and chores - you know, the usual.
I'd just like to mention that the weather has been just fantastic lately. All the storms and rain and dark clouds - I am just loving this.
Oh, also I'd like to mention that basically every picture in this blog has been taken from good friend of mine's blog which is here. Thanks for having such a great eye when choosing pictures.
Now that the boring topics are covered I'd like to lay some thoughts of mine on the table. Or the screen, if you prefer.
But first some music:
Well, what I wanted to talk about was, well, basically, talking. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this here before (I'm pretty sure I have on numerous occasions) that I like to talk to interesting people about interesting subjects. Yeah, I'm sure I have brought this up before.
Anywho, where I'm getting at is that lately I've had the privilege of speaking to some really intelligent or in other cases really sweet people or even really annoying people. Basically, all kinds of people. And what I've realized is that not many people share my views on things. Well, sure, there are similar thoughts about the little things, but what I'm talking about here are the big world-affecting matters.
What I've realized is that so many people's reasoning is too simple, too closed-minded. As I see things, there's always like a million different angles to look at something and I always try to find as many as possible before engaging the thought further, but it appears that not everyone thinks that way. Selfishness and hypocrisy are the things that are stopping people from seeing. It's just another sad thing in the world that I personally can't do anything about. So no point in expanding on this any further. But hopefully you get my point.
I'm not a negative or pessimistic person, I think I'm more of a realist. So on the contrary to the kind-of-negative tone of my discussion above, I think that life is great and worth fully embracing.
Well, gee. I've been working a lot. I mean, a lot. Today'll be my seventh day in a row and it can get a bit tough, but I'm alright. Tomorrow I'll rest. And then back to work the day after tomorrow.
The old "judging-a-book-by-its-cover"-saying has come up a lot lately and it got me thinking. For example, recently I have got to know this person a little bit. Before meeting her, judging by her friends and other factors, I would've thought (and I'm ashamed to say that I did a little bit) that she was a greatly unpleasant person. But then, to my surprise, I discovered that she is a nice person, unlike her friend by whom I judged her.
It's actually pretty awful how we judge people by their looks and other outside factors. I've recently found many great people whose looks are extravagant. It really doesn't matter. It's just sad that so many are unable to look past those things.
Oh how I would like to have a glass of whiskey and just sit at a bar and talk to some interesting person. But apparently that is kind of difficult for a number of reasons.
My name is Ottomar Vaga and have a good evening.
O.
My new favorite band is The Black Keys. The best blues band I have heard. Loving their music right now. Not all of is that bluesy but it's all really great.
Well, yeah. Not the best mood right now. I hope you forgive me and bear with me. Or not. Oh, and one more thing - you most probably won't understand what I'm exactly talking about and I will not be going into any details.
I would be fucking flattered if someone put this much effort into seeing me, if someone tried this hard. But of course it's not alright. There always has to be something wrong. I haven't done a single fucking thing wrong, but still there are problems. Well, I say to you a good old "Whatever". Do what you will.
For some reason I feel like staying home and not doing anything social. And that has been the case for the whole week. I have no idea as to what the reason(s) might be, and to be honest I don't care, either. I like home.
I hate mixed signals and people who are incapable of making up their minds or doing the things that they decide to do.
önlgöangalögopjapalhggölhmj,äslllgnasghöafoj
Yes, that and a lot more is what is on my mind tonight.
O.
The theme song of this year's Estonian Dance and Song Festival. I spent a week in Tallinn and danced. Most of the week was spent rehearsing, but when the actual festival began, the emotions were enormous. I for one loved it. I'm definitely doing that again.
We formed the map of Estonia.
We didn't sleep much during the whole week and partied. It was a lot of fun most of the time.
I made some great new friends from all over the country. People there were really great and friendly for it was a national patriotic event that brings Estonians together. I am definitely proud to be one myself.
In other news, I'm kind of not liking my job, to put it lightly. Long story short: I'm quitting. There a loads of other things I want to do for which I wouldn't have time if I had a job.
I have a lot of things on my mind. I plan to accomplish some things during this summer. I am going to spend time with friends and also alone. I'm not going to talk about my plans much, because I'm pretty sure that no-one is really all that interested.
I love the guitar, my friends and a lot of simple things.
"A young man who is quite good at playing the guitar" - A reference to Jimi Hendrix.
I chuckled for quite some time after that sentence. It's in the movie "A boat that rocked". Also, I loved that movie. It is definitely one of my favorite movies of all time. The music is all from the 60's and it's absolutely fantastic. Something like this:
That time just seems so much simple although it actually surely wasn't. Still - I admire the 60's for so much even though a lot also baffles me about the period. Like, in the movie, the up-tightness of a conservative British family, it just seems so unpleasant and makes me think of a rich British family as unproductive and unimaginative. I know it isn't so, but I still imagine them that way + nowadays they're a lot fatter so I add that to my vision of a typical British family. But that's not what I want to write about. I want to emphasize how much I would love if some (or more) things in the world were as they were in the 60's. The way men treated women for example - I always imagine that back then all men were gentlemen who knew how to really treat a woman. There are other things like the carefree attitude and the way people dressed and the lack of (or at least lesser amount of) peer pressure about clothing, behaviour etc. Those are the things I respect, the things that fill my heart with joy, the things that I aspire towards.
Now more about the music. The rock'n'roll tunes played during that time were, back then, considered pretty rebellious and that made them so much more exciting to the people of that time. Also, people danced more, and didn't seem to be that concerned with dance moves and what they looked like during dancing. They just enjoyed themselves. Unlike nowadays, where people, especially guys, are worried if they look silly or something. I'm not a dancer myself, mainly because of that, but I actually love moving around.
I think that love held a deeper meaning to people back then. Sometimes I don't think that, because nowadays love is mainstreamed through so many movies and other media that it probably is something important to people. But I still think that love was something different in the 60's. I can't really explain it, I'm sorry.
But I think that I've expressed enough opinions for tonight.
That track is awesome. Really gets the blood flowing y'know. My favorite part is at 3:24 when a crowd screams "Yeah!". It was actually put together of individual tracks that the band's fans sent them. And out came a crowd screaming "Yeah!".
I want to move to a big city. Preferably a city in the States because then I can speak a language I'm good at and also be in a country I've always wanted to be in. My dad just came back from a business (and some pleasure) trip there. He went to Boston and New York. He told me that I need to have a strong sense of identity and not let myself get overwhelmed by the sheer size of the city (NYC) to live there and that I am likely to feel lonely there even if I have friends. I somewhat disagree - I think that since I love spending time alone, I might do just fine there and since I don't have problems communicating with people I think I'd find friends, too. Actually, I think that a huge (even gigantic) city like New York would suit me pretty well. But I can't say for sure for I haven't lived in a place like that for a longer period of time. I'll just have to find out myself someday.
Ah crap, I had this really-really awesome picture of New York on my computer, but I seem to have lost it and I just can't find it on the internet either. It's sad because the picture was unlike any I've seen before. I'd like to have the chance to share it with you.
I wanted to post the picture because it shows one of my favorite things about New York - the brownstone apartment buildings. Or I guess some of them aren't apartment buildings but more like private homes. Something like this:
I'd like to live in a building like that once. They seem homey with them all being snuggled up next to each other and their brown walls and high front doors.
I could go on and on about the city, what I love about it and why I love those things I love. And that must be something, considering that I haven't actually been there. But I'm not going to make this post too long.
I just realized that the song in the beginning of this post doesn't suit at all with the rest of the post's content. Should have listened to that song whilst writing so there'd be some emotional connection, but now it's all wrong. Hope you still get the right feeling about New York when reading this post.
You all have a nice summer and make sure to take time off to spend with the people you love.
O.
I kind of love this song. She has this awesome dangerous and threatening voice and intonation that is pretty badass. + I recently heard it in some movie but I forget what movie it was. Doesn't matter.
Oh and I got a job for the summer. I'm the guy who makes pizzas in the restaurant Si-Si. I kind of love it 'cause well, I love cooking as I have previously mentioned. Plus it's nice to have a source of income besides my parents.
Cool picture. Makes me feel homey for some reason.
I'd like to mention that lately I always seem to be excited. Sometimes I know the reasons but other times I'm just excited for no apparent reason. Hmm, sounds ominous. It could be that I'm going nuts but I doubt that. Could be love but I doubt that, too. Well, I do seem to have this extra good mood when this one person pops up in my mind now and then. But it could mean anything. What I know for sure is that I don't know for sure what the reason is.
+ I suggest you read really slow because I'm going to put a couple more songs here and you need to listen to them all ;)
Well, anyways, I'm not going to bore you with talking about that person.
In other news, my plan to get all fives on the report card has failed (this is even more boring... I'm bored writing this!), so that's a no-go.
These airplane pictures are great. They give me this nomadic feeling even though I clearly am not a nomad. And I actually don't want to be one that much. It probably would be a cool experience, but I'm too comfortable for that.
Cooking is awesome. I just love it. All the smells and sounds in the kitchen are great. The only downside is that you usually don't feel hungry afterwards after spending an hour amidst those smells.
The best thing about cooking for me is the fact that I can make stuff for my friends. Eating is good and it's even better when I can make delicious food for people to eat.
I like to experiment, but I still haven't managed to make an inedible dish so I must be pretty good at cooking. Curry is by far the best seasoning. But when it comes to desserts then it's chocolate all the way for sure. I can't imagine a better thing than chocolate.
Also, cooking is great when done with someone else. It's really-really fun then. I'm going to be having that kind of fun soon enough, I think.
I so want to be on the road right now. Just drive somewhere. Doesn't matter where. With someone great. I can think of a few people I'd like to go with. Just drive. Spend time in truckstops and gas stations. Drink lots of coffee. And talk - to the person I'm with, whoever she or he might be.
Or fly to a warm place and just chill by the pool, drink beer and talk. Again with the talking - well I guess I like talking to interesting people.
Or go alone and walk the streets of Paris. Just take my guitar and play on a streetcorner. Meet other interesting musicians and street artists and just jam with them. I've seen it happen with my own eyes: two complete strangers from two totally different countries just started playing together. It was in Paris if I recall.
I just remembered I have this little thing called a blog which needs new stuff in it. So here I go.
Yesterday I got thinking about bass in music (thanks to a person who is loveliness incarnate) and how it gives you this deep feeling inside, this epic, anticipating but also secure feeling. I always notice bass and I love listening to it. But on the other hand I don't feel like I want to play bass myself. I'll stick with the guitar. For example: the song above wouldn't give me the same epic but somewhat sad and also serious feeling at all if it didn't have the bass playing those few notes in the beginning. I just love how bass can create any mood it wishes.
That said I'm going to move on to other matters.
First of all I'd like to say that I'm happy, I really am. There are plenty of things to complain and worry about, but they don't bother me anymore. I know I'll be just fine because those are the littlest, the least important things. What's more important is that I have awesome people. People who put up with my moods and who (as I understand it) actually perceive me as a pretty cool guy, too. I don't mean to sound egotistical, it's just how I understand it. I'm so used to not giving a crap about what people around me think (because I used to loathe them), but now that the new people (who are awesome) are here, I kind of care. True, I mostly just care about what a couple of my friends think, but I care nonetheless. Okay, I have already made my point, no need to continue with this nowhere-getting text.
PS! You are awesome. Yes, you. You know who I'm talking to. I've told you you're awesome before and I'm going to say it again: You're awesome!
I think I've had enough of the word "awesome" to last at least three lifetimes so it's probably wise to stop saying it. Now for some more music:
What a good song. Also suggested to me by the person who is best described by the a-word and who I also previously called loveliness incarnate.
But enough about that person. After all it's not that important who suggested me this song.
I'll try to think of more things to write about in the future, but no-one is interested in my everyday life so no details about that.
There is one thing: I'm a proud member of Kajakas now. I've only been there once and I already laughed my stomach to shreds.
I'm trying to remember this cool phrase I heard today but I forget. Never mind.
The title pretty much sums up my holiday weekend - I did absolutely nothing useful. Was good.
Now I'm just sitting home thinking that I'm probably a little bit sick. There is no other reasonable explanation as to why I would be so exhausted that I can't even play tennis properly.
Definitely not looking forward to school anymore. At least not Koidula. Would just like to chill and enjoy the sunshine with my buddies (who don't seem to feel the same way).
Anywho... it seems that once again I don't have any real subject to talk about. I just thought that I should post something.
Actually. There is one thing I would like to say. And that is, that I deeply enjoy spending time alone. I mean, it's great to just read something and listen to music and think and sing if I feel like it, or speak my thoughts out loud. Can do anything I want. Isn't that great? Well, yeah, I'm always happy when my friends and I do something or just hang out (which we apparently don't do very much... not with me at least), but alone is so great. I don't feel the need to have someone around all the time... well, maybe there is one person, but that's a whole other matter.
But you get my drift.
Just as I was getting used to coming home to no-one, my parents came back from Japan. Well, it was nice while it lasted. On the plus side, I don't have to spend my own money on food anymore and I got myself a cool bracelet-thingy.
Been living on the Johnny Cash wave for a couple of days now. If you haven't already then watch the movie "Walk the line" - I loved it. Joaquin Phoenix actually sounds almost identical to Johnny Cash and the music in the movie was great.
I wish I could wear a suit all of the time. Suits are stylish and masculine and never go out of style. But they're damned expensive and wear out quickly if I should wear them every day. So... I guess not.
It would appear that one particular person is under the impression that I'm an egotistical arrogant person. Well, I'd like to remind you that this is not the case. I value manners above all else and aspire to resolve every situation without losing my cool and staying polite. So now you know...
A friend brought muffins to school today. Was delicious and I wasn't forced to eat the egg-fish soup that was served in the cafeteria. Also, we got a bunch of cookies because we're not going to school on Monday and that was supposed to be our lunch. See the point? Yeah, me neither.
I spent two hours sawing pieces of wood for my last project in woodshop class. It is going to be a really good piece because I plan on using it in my everyday life so it has to be.
Today I got thinking about what is a good, maybe even perfect, life. Is there a definition? I think not. I believe that everyone has to decide for themselves. Friends are probably an important step towards a good life. To me a happy life is a life where I have a chance to do all the things I want. Not in an tyrannical or selfish way - just to get to read all the books I want and try out different things and have a chance to at least make acquaintance with the awesome people of the world. Luckily you don't always have to look very far for those people. I for one have found some extremely interesting, good-hearted and humorous people. I don't feel the need to talk to every person I see. Interesting people usually shine out from the crowd and those are the people I will remember. And that brings me to the thought that a happy life is one where you can remember the good ol' times and have the people to remember them with. One person should be enough. It would be for me. I don't know about you but I don't want to gather a lot of people around me to be similar to me or even worse - to be a part of the grey mass. I have my opinions and my views and if there are some people out there who have exactly the same views then I would be happy. Very much so in fact.
But enough of this subject. Don't want to write a novel here.
Hey, haven't written for a couple of days now, but I don't feel like just writing about what I do every day - seems pointless. And no-one probably cares, so I'll write if I have something to say.
It would seem that tonight I have something to say. I won't go into details but recently I've been feeling jealous of some people. I hate that I'm jealous of them, because I feel like it's a stupid thing to be jealous of. But I am, so... sucks to be me, I guess. I mean, it's not an unusual thing, but I still hate being jealous of that. I won't share with you the source of my jealousy because I don't want some people to know. If you're interested then come and ask me, but I can't tell some of you. But jealousy is a horrible thing and I hate being in its grip.
Otherwise everything seems fine. Life is a flower, as the saying goes :) There's especially one person who I deeply enjoy talking to, who is awesome in every way possible in my book.
Unfortunately I don't have anything meaningful to say, just some rambling that was written with an extremely sleepy head.
Well last night there was a party at my place and it was pretty cool. The people were awesome thus everything else was awesome. We had so much stuff to eat that I didn't need to make breakfast - I just ate the chocolate croissants that Stella made. I don't think she understands the concept of a croissant, but they were delicious so who cares. There was a bunch of people here and I'm really happy that my best friends came too, and helped me with everything. Also it was cool that Maris made it, and brought Mikk and Matu. It was cool just sitting and talking with them in the end. It's distressing that I had to be rude to some people and satisfying that I got to be rude to some really annoying people. Don't get me wrong - I think manners must always come before all else and I always try to be as polite as possible (even when talking to people I dislike very much), but those people just came here to annoy me and I had other things to deal with so I told them to get lost. I mean, is it so hard to just think before you say stuff? Is it so hard to NOT say utterly random curse words in sentences? What is the point? Maybe people just want to be cool or popular or whatever by cursing and acting like 10-year-old's, but there is absolutely no point in cursing. There are much more civil ways of making your opinion heard. People should also think about the way they speak, should think about the intonation, because things like that give very much away. Should consider other people and that not everything revolves around themselves. But those are my beliefs and thoughts on how to behave and I like to think of myself as old-fashioned, because I admire the common behaviour rules of the 50's and 60's. I don't feel like dissecting the subject any further, because when I go into detail, it takes me a whole novel-full of things to say before I'm satisfied that I got my point through. But now you know - I admire people who know how to be polite and say the right things and aspire to be like that myself.
It was also really cool that we got to jam a little with the guitars, although I can't play jack compared to Armand.
Also, my brother is back home for the weekend, which I love. We're going to the sauna tonight and going to have us a good time.
Well, it's been a pretty great couple-of-days. School's going alright, I guess, nothing interesting there.
Today there's gonna be a little get-together at my place, some awesome people are coming over. Going to have us a great time. Going to jam with guitars and have some cool things to eat. Stella's making chocolate croissants! I just cleaned the house a bit and chilled at the neighbors' place for I have some time until people come here.
Fortunately my mood seems to be great all of the time now, don't know what could be the cause. On the other hand, my brain seems to not deem it necessary to work at full functionality when I'm happy, so once again I have no thoughts to share with you in my blog.
Training was pretty bad today - some kids had some kind of a workshop there and we had no courts to play on. So we spent a couple of minutes in the gym but didn't really feel like being there either so we left. And that was the whole of the training I did today.
There was a person from Belgium to talk about the educational system at school today. Wasn't anything special and seemed too unorganized and random to be a legitimate study on the differences of the Estonian and Belgian educational systems.
This is the song that the title of the blog is inspired by :)
Today I'm in an euphoric mood, because the day has been extremely good. School was lame as always, but afterwards I got myself a new shirt and materials for my little project.
Most important of all, my good friend and mentor Kadi gave me a great review of my blog. Well, that made my day, because her opinion matters a great deal to me. Awesome as she is, why shouldn't it. And this post is dedicated to her :)
Been enjoying great music so far and also playing it. Whenever I'm standing up, I'm jumping around 'cause I just can't help myself. How about that, huh?
No deep monologues about society's issues in this post. But don't you worry, some random annoying or stupid or confusing thing is sure to put me in a thinking mood soon enough.
Thanks again, Kadi. Everyone have a great day and enjoy yourselves. I know I will.
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